I think, if I could wish for something to change something about myself, I would wish that I could live in the here and now. Not worry so much about the future, the past or everyone else.
One day soon, I'm just going to drive. Not have anywhere to go. Just drive. See the world. Feel it. Live it. Love it. I think that's a good plan.
Maybe, if I followed through my calming wishes/plans, I wouldn't be on ventillan (ventillin?) for difficulty breathing from anxiety. Fail. -.-

xxx.